How depressing is this? My mom and brother went to our cabin yesterday. My dad taking care of his boat. Basically what I’m saying is that I’m home alone for the weekend. Now, a normal teen would be having a party, going out with friends or at least have something to do. My day consisted of nothing, and the strange thing is I didn’t mind. My morning was great, I ate crap food for breakfast and I was consumed with the book “The Elite”. The second series in The Selection series. I recommend it to everyone who loves a little intrigue. Anyway yes I didn’t mind that much, but at the same time it hurts. It hurts that not a single person out there want to spend time with me. It seriously makes me wonder what is wrong with me.
Because I was home alone, I needed to go to the store to get some food. On my way down to the store I saw people outside my old classmates house. I cringed, realising I had no makeup on and was wearing baggy cloths. Not the way you want to look when you see people you know. Walking past them wasn’t an option and so I raised my hand to say hi. The group were all people from my old school. I knew I wasn’t friends with all of them but there were also faces I knew well. They were heading out and I watched them go off for some gathering of some kind. I wasn’t invited.
They were uncomfortable I was there, because they knew they didn’t want to invite me, and then feeling a little guilty about it, I hope they were feeling guilty. It broke me a little. Not because I really wanted to go to wherever they were headed, but because the feeling was familiar. It wasn’t even the first time this week someone had made me feel that way. In 2 months I`ve probably been out with friend 4 times.
Coming from a person with first hand experience, not having any friends suck. The scary part is the reason it sucks. It sucks because most people have this idea that they get form movies and society that you should be out doing something all the time. That you should have friends, especially when you`re young.
I decided today that I don`t want to spend time with people I don`t like. I`m not going to spend time with people just because I feel like I should. That doesn’t mean I’m not going to be sad because I don`t have someone I feel close to right now. Its not always easy being alone. I really want friends, everybody does. Unfortunately the only people I consider my friends are on the other side of the world. I`m different and I`m hard to love and I accept that. At least I’m trying to accept it.
Thanks for listening/reeding, it means a lot. The way I feel is indescribable, but if you have experienced the same thing, hold on, it can’t get much worse, right? And if anyone needs a friend I`m a good listener too.
Lots of hugs, V
Hey thanks for visiting my blog & the follow….you were the 100th one
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Aww I`m happy I was, I really liked it 🙂
And thank you too for liking my post.
Can`t wait to read more
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Your welcome…..by the way I ‘m sakshi
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Hey I`m veronica 🙂
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Hey nice to meet you….where are you from??
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Nice to meet you too. I`m from Norway, what about you?
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I’m from India!
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You`re really good at english. Do you learn that in school? And where from India? I`ve never been but I would love to travel there soon.
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Yeah!! I learn English in school & hope to improve it….by the way I ‘m from Maharashtra (an amazing place indeed!!)
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Sakshi, do you have twitter or something? would love to chat more 🙂
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Ya I’m on whatsaap but due to my exams i have uninstalled it as soon as I will be done with my exams I will let u know & would love to talk to u
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Haha I know the stress of exams, good luck 🙂 and can’t wait to hear from you 🙂
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Definately I would let u know after the exams!! Just remember me!!(just kidding) I hope u would
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Of corse I will 🙂
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Ok then see u later
Bye
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Good luck and bye
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Thanks again!
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Really love this! Yeah i just started college and i feel the exact same way. Having no friends sometimes sucks. But i have hope that things will get better, it has to! Love from the United States!
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Thank you 😊 I really believe the cool people are hard to find. And btw you are currently living my dream, I really want to study at an American college, but it’s way too expensive 😬
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